Instinct–a natural desire or tendency that makes you want to act in a particular way or a way of thinking and feeling that is not learned–overall is a good thing. Instincts whisper or sometimes shout to us what we should do, say or be. They tell us when something feels good or right. They also tell us when something does not feel so good or right, or when things feel off and that there are missing pieces. This missing pieces thing is hard.
I do think that listening–really listening–to your instincts is a good thing. It can save you a lot of contemplating, worrying and over thinking, and can be enlightening and directional. But when your instincts are telling you that something is not adding up or making sense you can feel confused or sad–and even feel uncertain and alone–and fairly quickly might I add. And it’s so difficult sometimes to let that just be especially when it hurts your heart.
You go on this emotional journey of trying to reconcile what you are feeling, examining your thoughts, actions and words. You take a deep dive into yourself to see what you might be able to do to find the answer or to find the pieces that are missing. But you just can’t.
You can’t sometimes because it’s not just you. There are other things in motion–energies in play. There are times people may not provide the missing pieces or fill in the blanks since they are unsure, uncomfortable, or want to spare your feelings, etc. You can ask questions and replay conversations in your head, and you can even put the feelings on the shelf to rest them a bit, but when you come back to them the pieces are still missing and a sadness starts to set in. But this is a journey since through your instincts eventually things will become more clear.
Sometimes you can string together what you know or experienced and the missing pieces start to appear–dots are connected and you have clarity. Sometimes the Universe will give you more insight or hints or put someone or a set of circumstances in your path that deposits pieces of information, and slowly but surely those missing pieces start to appear.
True, they may not always make you feel that great and a sadness or disappointment can linger a bit, but with the missing pieces in hand your ability to make choices is unblocked. You can move to working toward reconciling your feelings and accepting the current circumstances and you can hopefully find some peace and calm.